what IS a jicama? seriously!?!

how do you even pronounce that? what does one taste like? OH GOD I JUST GOOGLED IT and it said the word MEXICAN and there were pictures WITH CHILI POWDER. gag. vomit. yea, that is right, i haven't had mexican food since november. not one single serving of chips and queso. no guac, no tortillas, no rice, no beans, gag, gag, ok, i can't talk about it anymore. *i start picturing shredded lettuce mixing with beef and i TRY to imagine biting into it but it sends me over the edge (in a gagging kind of way)! dear god please let my mexican eating habits return. it would make karl so happy.

other than that, i haven't had many food issues while pregnant. i did go on that cookies and cream shake kick/binge - only from chic-fil-a - but that only lasted about three weeks... only odd for me b/c i rarely eat ice cream or chocolate. hmm. that sounds good right now. do you think i could pull 'the pregnant card' and make karl get me one? i so rarely use THE PREGNANT CARD! (i am saving it for the last month when getting off the couch might be more difficult!)

i had a bit of a break down last night. feeling simultaneously tired and restless. didn't sleep much last night. staring to feel a bit of 'the waiting game' beginning. it's just a strange time - there is still two months to go, i still feel great, but wonder if i should feel worse? SERIOUSLY. these are the things i am anxious about! being preggo KINDA consumes your brain no matter how fabulous you feel. (see the last few months of blog posting!). Work is WEIRD. plans about WORK AFTER BABY are weird. our company retreat is this week. usually i am excited about it but this year i feel anxious about leaving home/wanting to stay close to my husband (usually i feel fine leaving him for a few days, but i have been SUPER NEEDY with wanting him to be around lately. i have been weepy on and off. in the shower. watching the celtics game. reading a nice email from a client at work. realizing i put a doggie towel in with my delicates. fixing dinner. (you know, all normal times to burst into tears.) I also have been EXTREMELY unproductive in a number of things. also feeling a little bi-polar about upcoming doctor visits - i waver b/w wanting to go desperately RIGHT NOW and terrified something is going to be wrong (or not even go wrong, but they are going to tell me i am doing something drastically unhealthy and make me all nervous!). i think i MAY be having some contractions - who knows!? WHEN IS IT GOING TO START HURTING? (am i seriously asking for some pain? um, serious be-careful-what-you-wish-for moment happening here!!! RIGHT?) it's official. i have lost my mind.

and now you know more than you probably wanted to about my state of mind. thanks for reading! i AM fine... just having a somewhat EMOTIONAL WEEK. hope you don't mind me sharing.

31 weeks, 4 days (the jicama is week 32 fruit! not sure of my posting abilities for the rest of the week. btw week 31 was FOUR naval oranges. FOUR. that's about 3 and 1/2 pounds of oranges.)