9.28.2009

live laugh love: this expression (commercialized) annoys me

WHY IS IT EVERYWHERE?

live: today i ran two miles. and it felt good.
laugh: today nate ran across the room and slammed his face into my leg.
love: today karl steam cleaned the rug in our living room.

I know everyone is excited about fall (and i am too) but I am also a little nervous b/c i get all Seasonal Affective Disorderey around weather changing times. I am trying to really take things slower this fall and to really appreciate where we are right now. I am trying not to think about cooking and cleaning and playing with nate as chores per say (though there is nothing glam about cleaning the bathroom or changing diapers... I don't care who you are!) and instead trying to really live (yea, yea, and laugh and love - put it on a tshirt or coffee mug) in the moment.

i have discovered this to be quite challenging -
more so than i might have realized. i think in the past i was very, very focused on the NEXT. for instance...the next job, the next project, the next pay check, the next vacation, the next house, the next car, hell, the next trip to the grocery store or next load of laundry. While I still think about these things, i am trying not to put all my energy into them. (and, more importantly, i am not going to stress about the ones i am not able to obtain immediately.) i am trying to be calmer (ask me about my calmess when i couldn't find my car keys last week and we were late to meet up with friends and i threw (and broke) the remote control to our fan.) (what? we never use that remote anyway. AND what kind of pansy fan comes with a remote i ask you!?) and less cluttered (i have thrown away and given away SO MUCH in the past month; i am quite proud.) (i went on one particular binge after watching the show Hoarders for the first time. it frightened me. i told Karl I thought i had a hoarding disorder. He laughed. I threw away a bunch of old purses and clothes that will never fit me again.)

por ejemplo:
BWHAHAH. there are so many things WRONG with these two articles of clothing that i can't believe i am sharing them with you. THE SHIRT: 1. it has the word HUSTLA on it (which stems from an inside joke b/w me and my mom wherein i stumbled in my parents house at 2 a.m. after rounds of (VERY SUCCESSFUL) darts proclaiming i was a hustler... then proceeded to vomit for a few hours.) 2. i don't believe i could fit my left BOOB in that shirt. i'm pretty sure it shrunk a little and i have unshrunk a little but JESUS. Then, THE SHORTS: i know you can't see it in the picture but the word BUD is SPARKLED. jealous? they are in the goodwill bag. i only hope some young girl stumbles across them, wears them inappropriately for years, pushes them to the back of her closet, and finds them again (post a baby of course!) at the ripe old age of 28 and laughs and laughs.

ANYWAY, the point is: lessening of the clutter has helped me feel less stressed. and i think it is helping in the whole livelaughloveliveinthemomentbullshit i am all hopped up about! my kitchen and fridge have been so clean and uncluttered the past few days that i have even COOKED! (not just like pasta in a pot; MEALS!) so, hopefully, the transition into fall and into this new mommyhood lifestyle will be a smooth one.

if not, well, there's always HUSTLING.


14 comments:

The Smiths said...

open the windows too. it always makes me feel "put together" and calm. maybe it's the semi-communing with nature.

Angela said...

I am the same way- all about the "next". Trying to work on that. :-)

brooke knight said...

that outfit is super classy.

Jennifer said...

Wait, are those bud shorts mine. They look very familiar.

{lauryl} said...

oh, kat. i love that shirt so much. ;-)

Christine said...

this post spoke to me on far too many levels...I'm glad one of us is being productive...I'm going to continue to blame my hoarding, non-cooking, haven't come to grips with the fact that I won't be able to ever again wear half of my pre-baby clothes lifestyle on the whole working mom thing...at least for a little while longer.

Nick, Aubrey, Ella, and Kate said...

I am all about NOW. Especially the changing diapers, cleaning up spit-up, and wiping snotty noses part. :) But seriously, this post is wonderful. It rings true. Poignant...and also giggle-inducing with the photo and "left boob" statement. I heart autumn, but my mom gets SAD (such an appropriate acronym) every year like you. Good luck, ducky.

m-m-m-melissa said...

pretty soon you're going to be quoting maxine cartoons. i can't bear to live in that world.

good luck with all the now-ing, ladybug. and i really wish you would have consulted me before tossing the shorts. you know how much i love ill-fitting clothing. xox

Jax said...

hahaa... I so get SAD (seasonal affective disorder) in my opinion. And yeah.. the next project can kinda consume me (hence thinking of buying a house even though I cant afford it.. haha). Love love. Enjoy the fall! I'm trying to! :) XOXO!

Elizabeth Spann said...

The thought of becoming a hoarder has always terrified me. I save the stupidest crap!
I'm not sure, though, that tank should go in the throw away pile. :) Ha ha ha ha. HOT.

Anonymous said...

Can I have that tank top and shorts? I want to walk around Hermosa Beach in them!! alove

Meredith said...

livelaughloveliveinthemomentbullshit

HAHAHAHA!

:)

sarabethjones said...

oh...I am with you on the SAD.

I think it would TOTALLY help us to get away to someplace sunny. With therapeutic drink options available.

Probably insurance covers that - I'll start making reservations and let you know!

Stacia said...

you MUST save that tank...you just gotta ;)

p.s. Jacob's controlling himself is some new part of maturity, last year was a weee bit different. Not the kind of boy to back in a corner, hmph wonder where he gets that?