monday was okay. tuesday was worse. monday, everyone was all "it's great to see you! you look great!" tuesday was all "time to work".
tuesday, around 11 i had a breakdown, burst into tears, and drove over to daycare for lunch time. i was PRETTY MUCH sobbing by the time i got there and just picked him up (he was awake in his crib) and loved on him. we rocked, he fell asleep and i just held him for like 20 or 30 minutes while he slept, i stopped crying (briefly!). i think i almost made his 'teacher' cry b/c i was so sad!! i was trying not to cry in front of his teachers but, ah, what can you do!?!? i was saaaaaaaaaad. hardy har har.
wednesday and today i was busy so they were better. well, they went faster anyway! pumping at work is still bizarre and i am pretty sure the baby is totally starting to prefer the bottle. so. there's that.
i have a REALLLLLY good post but I am exhasted. thanks for all your encouragement and well wishes. for now, here's a big hug from nater.
also, i sent my first 'scathing' email at work. and it felt GOOD! so that is positive!
13 weeks (3 months even tomorrow! karl's birthday tomorrow too! crap!)