9.25.2008



monday was okay. tuesday was worse. monday, everyone was all "it's great to see you! you look great!" tuesday was all "time to work".

tuesday, around 11 i had a breakdown, burst into tears, and drove over to daycare for lunch time. i was PRETTY MUCH sobbing by the time i got there and just picked him up (he was awake in his crib) and loved on him. we rocked, he fell asleep and i just held him for like 20 or 30 minutes while he slept, i stopped crying (briefly!). i think i almost made his 'teacher' cry b/c i was so sad!! i was trying not to cry in front of his teachers but, ah, what can you do!?!? i was saaaaaaaaaad. hardy har har.

wednesday and today i was busy so they were better. well, they went faster anyway! pumping at work is still bizarre and i am pretty sure the baby is totally starting to prefer the bottle. so. there's that.

i have a REALLLLLY good post but I am exhasted. thanks for all your encouragement and well wishes. for now, here's a big hug from nater.

also, i sent my first 'scathing' email at work. and it felt GOOD! so that is positive!

13 weeks (3 months even tomorrow! karl's birthday tomorrow too! crap!)


6 comments:

Maria said...

Nate is adorable. I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. Hugs from Tulsa.

Nick, Aubrey, & Ella Mae said...

Oh man, I understand the sadness. Sweet Natey. I'm sure you want to hold him 24/7.

When you're feeling blue, just take a gander at your pitchfork fingers...or send a hateful email. You know my address. :)

melissa said...

I can see why you get sad...he is so freakin' cute! It will get better!

Jax said...

AWWWWWW!! I heart Nater and I think you're doing an awesome tastic job, lover! High five.. seriously...

Susan said...

Scathing?

And.... just quit so you can be a stay-at-home Mommy. That's where it's at! Just kidding, I didn't say that. But, you cuol quit if your heart says so! I mean only if you want to! But, do it! Not to push or anything. I'll supoort you either way, but we could totally hang out.

msfleurette said...

hugs right back at you and nater!